Hi, my name is Barb. It has taken me a while to find strengh in myself to believe I am SUPER. I know I am nice. I love to help people even at a cost to myself. I have come to realize I am not SUPERWOMAN, I am just wonderful me. For 30+ years, I have never thought I was wonderful. I thought by making people happy that would make me happy, that would makethem love me. I am not so different then many people in the world. Raise in a broken home, told by family "it is ok you are not pretty, you have pretty hair", searching for love in the wrong place, and being hurt in the worst way just because I wanted to be loved. Someone asked me once "Did you ever love yourself, can you tell yourself you love YOU?" First, why would I talk to myself, I was trying to be funny. A year ago I could not tell myself that I loved me. Today I can. I do love me as much as I love my amazing family. YES, that does surprise me. I never thought I could say it. I am getting stronger every day. Baby steps. We all have set backs, I don't understand why I do not allow myself to have set backs. I want to believe I am human. Correction: I do believe I am human not Superwoman or my heroine WONDER WORMAN. You know she is amazingly beautiful. I watched Lynda Carter when I was younger, so stronger, catching bad guys, and everyone loved her. I think my brother might have been the biggest fan but I wanted to be her.
So this is me, realizing I am not Wonder Woman who I call Super Woman (sorry Marvel Comic guys), just a woman on a journey to love herself more. It is a new journey for me. Laughter, Tears, Joy, and Heartache are the flowers on the side of this path. I can't wait to see what lies ahead.
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